first, i fell in love
Tuesday, December 10, 2013
back to front...lessons & pix from week 3 weight training
I run…therefore I am… well… not quite.
I started to run because it was a challenge, it was hard and there was no way to short-change it and cut corners. Running burns calories so efficiently and is a great way to stay skinny…for those that do it right. then, I fell in love with it.
Initially, I had loved running for the freedom it gave me and the way I could feel a part of the natural landscape and experience the seasons and all the changes around me. I felt alive with the rush of blood and the feeling of snowflakes melting on my face or when I ran in the blush of the dawn as it blooms across the sky…those moments are captivating and make my soul feel so light and free.
But…over time, I twisted the reason for running and made it feel like it was something I had to do – something I was compelled to do because I’d gain weight otherwise. At the same time, I routinely skipped meals to stay skinny. No one likes running with no fuel in the tank. I did that all the time and made myself miserable.
I’d said maybe I was done with running but now, I know I never want to give it up. I just want the best part of it – the part I fell in love with and is still, thankfully so easy for me to find again. my first run in 33 days yesterday reminded me of that.
week 3 - little signs
This week I completed my third week on my weights and nutrition program, I couldn’t be more surprised that while eating, I’ve actually lost a pound a week. I haven’t done very much cardio either – 4x a week with moderate effort 2x and HIIT 2x. that’s it. 2 hours in total of cardio per week plus 5 days of lifting for about 30 minutes each day plus a lot of food.
put away the number
I had the big weight discussion with my coach yesterday. I have a number stuck in my head- it’s what I think I should weigh…but when I’ve weighed that, I’ve been skinny and look good but I’m not deep down strong and healthy. So, with my coach, I decided I’d rather weigh more but look leaner, stronger and sleeker (and maybe sexier?). it’s time to put the number away and think about my sustained well-being. i've had it a little backwards for a long time.
strong with life
As I turned 45 this week, my goal is to have a long-term approach to being fit and healthy. In this case, my vanity isn’t a bad thing – it’s motivating me to find a way to look the best I can. I can’t keep running with the weaknesses I know I feel. I can’t keep starving myself and feeling miserable. It’s time to retrain my metabolism and most of all, my mindset. It’s also motivating to start to see the wee hint of some results from my efforts.
November 9 and Dec 2