|my bodybuilding coach, Paul Revelia, owner & founder, ProPhysique|
go big ... or go home
i had a choice to make and i can't do it all. training for marathons has left me lopsided. with a demanding career, 2 active children and an athletic husband, once i'm done running for an hour, or two, or three, the rest of the day is no longer mine. there is simply no time for anything but running. [read the backstory of how i got to this decision in the blog post before this one.]
wear and tear
marathoning is starting to take its toll on me. not in large ways. i'm fortunate and i've never been injured...but i can feel the structural weaknesses. my piriformis, hamstrings, glutes, lower back, and abs, hell even my mid back - they aren't getting the support they need to support my running habit. every once in a while, they grumble but haven't gone on strike yet.
even more than that, i don't like my current shape. i've never been a big fan of my body, but lately i've taken to obsessing over how much i hate some parts of me. it has to stop.
mischief becomes me
time to build some muscle and build back some self-confidence. those are my very simple goals over the next 12 weeks. i simply want to go back to being my usual sexy self and get that twinkle of mischief back in my eye.
This week was humbling as i literally took measure of where i'm at. i weighed myself and had my body fat and body parts measured. i had to send those horrendous "before" pics to my coach. fuck, talk about a joy kill. (i put one at the bottom - it's the only one i'm sharing out loud.)
slow and steady burn
the weights were tough and my body is screaming. it feels good to torch my abs and feel them four days later. Paul's my guide on what i should do so that i work in a steady, consistent way towards my goals instead of diving in, doing too much, and hurting myself.
fueling my passion
Paul's nutrition plan for me is simple - he gives me a number of grams that I should take in every day for proteins, carbs, fats and fibre. He'll adjust those as we go along and we see how my body responds. it's challenging as fuck to eat that much protein but carbs and fat don't seem to be an issue at all :) my food diary is
www.fatsecret.com because it has a blackberry compatible app. i don't find it an issue to log what i eat.
so much to learn
buying supplements at a bodybuilding shop was definitely interesting. the three guys working all wanted to know about my coach, what my macro diet looked like, and they gave me some good food ideas, and found all the stuff i needed. the most challenging part about the supplements is to drink all the liquid required for a protein shake, for my BCAAs. oh yeah - BCAAs? who am i? i don't know a thing about any of this stuff and that's why i love it. oh, and i now drink green apple flavoured fish oil. smh! :)
in the gym, i'm still unsure and so i go at the quiet times of the day. a trainer showed me the machines i need and gave me some pointers on my form. i watch people on the machines and they give me tips sometimes.
Here's part of my note to my coach today.
the naked truth
here's the only pic of me that i'll ever show you. it was taken on november 10. of course, i'm going to pick the best one to show you. i know that having a stronger body isn't the cure for sadness but knowing that i'm caring for myself makes me whole. that confidence is undeniably sexy.
|37.5mm fat on those thighs|